Ya, that's what's been circling through my mind lately. It's been a while since I've had this urge. The last time, I was still living in Brampton. Now, it's come up again, and I guess I shouldn't be surprised.
I've always been a pretty independent person, while still having a great group of people around me. I was me, with great friends and family. Now I feel like I'm losing that me. I think it really hit me recently when I realized that my mom speaks to me in the plural sense. It's not just me, it's you(s). When she first started doing small things like that, I was happy because I saw it as her being accepting. But now she's gone to the other extreme, and sees me as 2. I don't have anyone tide to my hip.
That brings up a related issue. I like the idea of having a partner in life, both pushing each other forward, teaming up to take on the world, putting each other first always, and gaining success from each other. But, sometimes this situation cannot be, and we must accept it. I have. Some people are just different, have different goals, have different views of life, different education, and so on.
Okay, so where am I going here (hey, I only ever promised this blog would be mindless rambling from the top of my head, perhaps meaning nothing in the morning)? Do I want a second half for my life or not? Well, kinda. I want my life, and have it linked with another's. I want mine to be made better by another's. I want the other's to complement, energize, and strengthen mine. But, I still want to be me.
Now comes the part that tweaks me just a little. I've never really understood what it meant to describe someone as a "free spirit". I just thought it was some new age lingo that didn't really mean anything. Lately though, I've started to relate, just a little. Are you a free spirit if you feel like running away every now and then, just to get lost on your own and not think about anything else? Who knows...
Now back to the song that started this blog...
"I need to run away tonight. Run run run....where do you go to be free?"
