"Excite me, ignite me
Oh and you know,
I miss you,
I kiss you
Oh and you know
Black cherry
Black cherry
Stone" ~Goldfrapp
I was thinking about how I should organise this blog, and what it should be about. I've decided to keep it random, dealing with things that interest me. Whether it be love, politics, favourite songs, or random thoughts.
Right now I feel like writing about love.
Love to me is NOT in the vain of: I cant live without you. To me, finding someone you love just makes your days brighter. You certainly could live without them, but it would be nicer not to. Love is that small bit of excitement that you feel for the person, or the way mundane routines become more interesting when they're around. It could come in the form of a best friend, pet, parent, child, or partner.
My problem with love is that I usually close up when it's near. Love can be a scary thing sometimes, especially when you're not used to it. I think my greatest fear is that it won't be reciprocated. Why try, and risk getting hurt? I'm learning to take that risk.
I have a black cherry in my life. One that I have seen only a few times, so few that I could count them on my hands. Does it matter that his values are different than mine? Does it matter that he has never told me that he even likes me more than just a special acquaintance? Does it matter that he lives kilometres and miles away from me, and that the chances of anything working out are slim?
Not when the person teaches you a hundred things about yourself in only an instance. Not when they break down the walls you have build, and crack the ones you never even knew where there. Life is liveable without love, but it is so much greater when it's around.
I won't spend my waking hours missing, I have a life to live. But, I will treasure everything that has come from this, and grow from the knowledge I have learned.
Isn't that the purpose for life anyways?
